BLUEPRINT

Its almost that time of the year again, you know the time of the year where you look up & assess the good & bad of 2011. The times you laughed, cried & became all sorts of emotional in between. The time where you remorse over those we've lost to death, & time where we look back on the ones we willingly let leave our existence. The time where you self analyze & judge who you are as a person. You're weight, style, living situation, financial income as well as outcome, relationships with people etc. It is the time of the year where we all believe to get a fresh start & say, "this is going to be my fucking year".

I enjoy the last two months of each year, I look at it as my "Blueprint" stage. For me, this stage is when I become my harshest critique & look back at all the good & bad I did in 2011. How to take these mistakes & learn from them as a man & proceed with wisdom. I also aim for different goals or challenges to attempt in 2012. The older I grow the more & more I'm able to see my flaws & then attempt to correct them. One of my favorite quotes is " Youth is wasted on the young". So I definitely take that to heart & aspire to make something of it, as we all should. May you all reach your personal endeavours & continue to utilize the youth within us all, remaining this year as well as 2012.

God Bless

LET'S STRIVE FOR IT

THIS MOMENT

Lately, I don't feel like fucking with anyone at the moment. Just me, myself & I. The older I'm becoming each day the more & more I expect people to just naturally become more & more like myself. Needless to say I'm setting myself up for disappointment. But I don't know exactly what it is, but I do know that I just do not want to be bothered. Not by my family, my team, my job, none of these females, no one.

I guess I sit in an era of solitude where only I can add or subtract to my life. Sometimes it is refreshing to just get out of attachments in people & keep to yourself. To analyze what makes you, you. What is important, & what does one need to add or subtract to make one's existence that much better. I'm all about growth right now. If you have an attitude issue or a "catty" personality, you are not needed. If you do not know when nor even how to properly communicate, you are not needed. As well as part time friendships, who mainly only come out or around just to kick it & party, guess what? Yeah, you as well are not needed.

This life we live is a very short one, & I guess the main focus for this post is to sometimes take a step back from it all & assess that time. Its something very crucial in fact. Sitting here at 23, I definitely fell as if I had my fair share of midlife crisis issues, however its not over. Not in the slightest. So as I gather my head do me a favor & try to gather your own. I'm certain we all have things we need to assess.

-Darrin