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[Verse 1]When a good thing goes badIts not the end of the world.Its just the end of a worldThat you have with one girl.And she's the reason it happened,But she's overreacting.And its all because she don't want things to change.

[Hook]So cry if you need to,But I can't stay to watch you.That's the wrong thing to do.Touch if you need to,But I can't stay to hold you.That's the wrong thing to do.Talk if you need to,But I can't stay to hear you.That's the wrong thing to do.Cause you'll say you love me,And I'll end up lying,And say I love you too.

[Chorus]But I need someone different.You know it, oh oh you know it.Oh oh you know it, we both know it.I need someone different,You know it, oh oh you know it.Oh oh you know it, we both know it.Something's been missing,you know it, oh oh she knows it.Oooh I know it, we all know it.I need someone different.
[Verse 2]We live in a generation of not being in love,And not being together.But we sure make it feel like we're together,Cause we're scared to see each other with somebody else.

[Hook]So cry if you need to,But I can't stay to watch you.That's the wrong thing to do.Touch if you need to,But I can't stay to hold you.That's the wrong thing to do. Oooh.Talk if you need to,But I can't stay to hear you.That's the wrong thing to do.Cause you'll say you love me,And I'll end up lying,And say I love you too.

[Chorus]But I need someone different.You know it, oh oh you know it.Oh oh you know it, we both know it.I need someone different,You know it, oh oh you know it.Oh oh you know it, we both know it.Somethings been missing.

-Drake

I GUESS...

I guess I'm not what you pictured me to be...

I mean two years in & I cant even get a simple conversation in with you see...

I look at love as if the glass is half full never half empty...

but I guess your look on love has an engine which runs of sympathy...

I guess I'm not the one in who you want to share your life with & aim for a strong finish...

I can become the epitome of strength while you crumble under this temporary distance...

I guess I ask for far too much

Lack of keeping your own word equals a lack in trust.

I guess I'm not the one who's basically good enough...

I guess I love you far greater than you could ever love me..

I guess my worst nightmare is now a full blown reality...

I guess this kind of hurts because I put so much faith in you...

I guess hurts worst because you you wanted me to put it on you...

I guess we cant get it right & I'm the one to blame...

I guess its only my fault because i set the bar to a much higher aim....

I guess its my bad, I'm weak I cant get it right...

I guess things will remain fucked up till about march right?

-Darrin Elliot

THE TRUTH

GOD GAVE US THIS MOMENT, SO LETS OWN IT -DARRIN ELLIOT

QUEEN

This one is for my most high,
One to get me by,
Apple of my eye,
My beautiful black Queen.
This ode is to you,

In to take full appreciation of what you do.

Faced with the weight of the world & all its complex challenges,

You still find the time to execute the most perfect balances

You are a queen who can do all things, I need you in my life,
Work plus school, full time mother, lover, girlfriend, or even wife,

You always do what you have to & baby girl you do it right

No man in your child's life, so you are forced to play both mother & father,
Bill collectors, no child support, you feel as if life gets no harder,

But you are a queen

& can do all things,

you make it work,
Even though its hurts,

from the fallen tears in which form dreams,

24 hours in a day & you make it seem like 38,
In 2 moves you stole my knight & bishop to force an early check mate

You cook, clean do homework & still maintain to be a CEO
You make life worth living even though I'm facing death row

You put it down, time & time, over & over again,
You showed me love & helped me evolve from a boy into a man,

You have the most complex heart yet give me the most simplistic love, its far from plain,

You take to my side to see me soar, I've learned to call you Lois Lane.

My queen, my beauty you are the strongest ruler a king could ever have,

I taste your tears, am always near, & I enjoy the beauty in your laugh,

From the sway of your back to the way you fall asleep,

countless intellectual conversations an ocean beyond deep,

& as I sit & think about all that makes me weak,

it just comes back to my queen as my heart continues to skip its beat,

My queen I can go on for hours or even days just to get this point across,

you allow me to be a man & help mold me from employee to a boss

My queen you are that in which allows me to fly,

as if I were already a proclaimed star then queen you are my sky.

My queen this one is for you & all that you do,

just know that I love & appreciate everything, & will continue to serve only you.

-Darrin Elliot

Change & Growth

Change & Growth. Two simple words, but when used together they instantly become powerful. Now I 1st have to pay homage to this chick I use to date, who has these same words tattooed on her wrist. She schooled me in saying she has changed & she is forever growing as a person. I can relate & artistically I wish to be able to convey that to a much more broader perspective. Now no matter who you are, or what you have ever dealt with in life, we all are faced with change & growth. We all have to know this & accept this. Some of us do, many of us don't. As a people I believe the ones who don't see the importance in growth, are far too comfortable in their situation or just too complacent in life.

Now if you have made it to a certain aspect of you're existence & you are comfortable, then you are not using you're full potential. Simple as that. If you haven't grown to the place you are aiming for then you have to ask yourself the following question : What change do I need to become, in order for myself to grow? See change & growth go hand & hand, they are counterparts to this thing called life. I sit here at 23 with a job, no career. No children, girlfriend or even a wife. I sit here at 23 with a dream & growing determination. The reason I bring myself up is because I'm the test subject, I'm the change & I will be the growth. No I'm not disappointed with myself or am I having a reality check. Its called being self aware & may we all be self aware.

Know that it takes something to be somewhere in life, & do you know what that something is ? Yeah that's right you guessed it, Change & Growth. Very simple yet very complex in the same exact text. There are many things that I in fact am aiming to change. This process will be followed by the growth of a man evolving into someone whom I don't even know yet. However I do know that person will be better than Darrin at 23. May you all become that change, & allow yourselves to grow. We need it, our families, communities & future needs it. It can be something as small as quit smoking & working out more. Or even monumental as going back to school & finishing for your AA, BA, MA etc. I am a living breathing testimony, that we all can "Change & Grow". Lets get it.

God Speed

Ms. Patton.

BLUEPRINT

Its almost that time of the year again, you know the time of the year where you look up & assess the good & bad of 2011. The times you laughed, cried & became all sorts of emotional in between. The time where you remorse over those we've lost to death, & time where we look back on the ones we willingly let leave our existence. The time where you self analyze & judge who you are as a person. You're weight, style, living situation, financial income as well as outcome, relationships with people etc. It is the time of the year where we all believe to get a fresh start & say, "this is going to be my fucking year".

I enjoy the last two months of each year, I look at it as my "Blueprint" stage. For me, this stage is when I become my harshest critique & look back at all the good & bad I did in 2011. How to take these mistakes & learn from them as a man & proceed with wisdom. I also aim for different goals or challenges to attempt in 2012. The older I grow the more & more I'm able to see my flaws & then attempt to correct them. One of my favorite quotes is " Youth is wasted on the young". So I definitely take that to heart & aspire to make something of it, as we all should. May you all reach your personal endeavours & continue to utilize the youth within us all, remaining this year as well as 2012.

God Bless