MY ANGEL

RIP My angel Brittany L. Veal.

June 8th, 1987 - July 22nd, 2005

Bighead,

Its been 5 years & I still think about you on the regular, yet it still hurts to deal with this loss. I just wanna say thank you for watching over me & keeping me close to you.

I know that no matter what you are always going to be my guardian, motivation & protector & for that alone I am forever thankful. When it gets hard down here I look to you as an example of strength & no matter what you always come through. Thank you for everything, back then in high school to even right now today. You are missed & I cant wait to see you again.

PS. please don't annoy everyone up there by singing any jay-z songs..especially anything off the black album..lol

love & miss you always, your big head,

-D.J

HONESTLY

YEA THIS ONE IS PERSONAL, HOPE YOU ALL RESPECT & ENJOY IT.

The lights don't glow the way they use to
& that's the opposite of what we want it to be
No matter what I could do as of now
You still deserve someone better than me

& that's the realist shit I could ever speak from my soul,
I mean by now both you & I being single is getting kind of old

Its been some years since you & I were once one
Speaking of our future together & talks of our unborn son
Man all that shit was fun
But reality sunk in & it looks like a lot of my dreams are done

So with that being said it hurts to see what should've been go
I never wanted us to take it this slow
some years past & our 05 mind frame just didn't seem to grow
you just deserve better & I thought I should let you know

You're a child of God family woman college student whose educated
While I'm a rolling stone sinner whose soul is degraded
& there is even no need to go about & debate it
See this was a hard choice to grip with & I've already made it

You're probably thinking to yourself

After Everything you've ever done & now I pull this treason
Hell you even helped me out when it was a harsh Autumn season
But trust me babe I have a pretty damn good reason

See you deserve someone much better than me
That's why I gotta let my caged bird soar away & be free
That way you can provide much better for He
Either God or you're new love they deserve it much more than me
See this is something where I just gotta keep it G
I just hope you're eyes are open & you can fully see
That Ima always love you I just got to let you be

& Ima be Ima be, Ima Ima Ima be on top never stop
& you will always be the 1st one to ever have my heart on lock

high school sweetheart who took my fears & placed em in a box

Just make sure you never forget about us
& even that one time you surprised me on the bus

Or the one time I spent the night & just held you near my chest
& the very next morning your breakfast you made was the best

Or maybe when it all started the night in the hotel
We talked until the morning came & we were like oh well

See those memories are always going to be near & dear to me
Yet the fact still remains the same,
You deserve someone better than me

-Darrin Elliot

ARGUE & REPEAT

Its like we fight argue then repeat
By now you would've thought you could understand me
But no, a year later & still no growth
Your chest looks empty, a heart doesn't even show

& how could you be so heartless & stop on loves breaks?
I guess your writing your own version of 808's & heartbreaks

Such a spoiled little LA Girl
Lost & confused in her own little world
I just wanted to let our love un furl

But I guess you have different kind of plans for your own
Now I want & need to be isolated here all alone
Going against the massive stereotypes while acquiring a throne

& since we just fight argue & repeat
Our single on love hasn't went gold yet & its already been a week
yea our fan base is pretty weak
I mean I tried as hard as I could to stay discreet
yet my sour filled mouth has left us both bittersweet
& even though you are unique
We carry this drama in which I'm no 1 to compete

So this will be the last time we fight argue & repeat

-Darrin Elliot

SIZZLE

Your a positive motivating force within my life
so I just aspire to someday make you my wife
Thoughts of it alone is something I never think about twice
The perfect creole couple now that shit sounds nice

Hands down your the best for me as I'm the best for you
I mean let's look at this last year we been through

Days in Inglewood 405 to 101 pushing to woodland hills
I mean you even stood by a nigga when I lost my wheels
So with that it only adds to your appeal
I never thought I could find a dime who can keep it 100% real
You just don't understand on how you make me feel

Like I could go on for hours & maybe even days
About what makes u special in all your unique ways
but hopefully you could take from this on what I'm tryna say
I mean I just want you to be all mine one day

My date to the oscars the million dollar woman on my hip
Win lose or draw right after the ceremony we're headed on a trip
the one I share all my secrets with
Never been afraid to let you in or even share with you my gift
You look out for me so from that alone you're the shit

& through & through I will always have the up most love for you
I just really hope & pray we see it all the way through
Cause out of em all I only really view you as my boo
I just have to patiently wait to see if we could ever say "I DO"

-Darrin Elliot

FIRE RIDES

DAMN LLOYD & JUELZ WENT HARD ON THIS ONE!! 1 WORD = FIRE

REFINED CLASSICS

Shout outs to the people at Jordan for creating these "Oreo" 6's.

Definitely pure, crisp, & unique, these are a pair worth having.

& I'm not even a huge fashion blogger but these had to go up.

START TIME

Beginning to the end, where should I begin?
I guess I want to end all of my repetitive sins
& do all that while making massive ends
See my family depends
On making sure they're ok in the end
But where should I begin
See this heart burns within
& since I only know that its sink or swim
I just pray to God that he can coach me to win
So I ask him this very day where should I begin?

-Darrin Elliot

FLAWS & ALL

I was writing a prayer request the other night & instead of the lengthy ones the I normally I write out, my hand suddenly stopped. Midway down the page, I just begin to write about myself. Out of no where I just wrote this & I don't know why. I think God was trying to tell me something.


-STRENGTHS-

•Friendly
•Funny
•Witty
•Intelligent
•A Leader
•Artistic
•Responsible
•Self Driven
•Trustworthy

-WEAKNESSES-

•Complacent
•Procrastinator
•Unsure of myself
•Emotional
•Shyness


Well I think my strengths out weigh my weaknesses however I just gotta aim at where I need to improve. I believe that each day in which passes I can & have been becoming a better individual however now I know that I really need to step it up.

Be the change you want to see. Write down your dreams, goals strengths & flaws then see what needs to be done about them. Life is yours for the taking. Let's make it happen

-Darrin Elliot

TRUTH ROCKS

I fucks with Chris Rock because his style of comedy is so rare & he speaks truth.

PERFECTION AMONGST MORTALS

Yea I had to do it. Best way to put it, this level of beauty is unmatched. The funny thing is that most of you who personally know me, understand how much of a Lisa Raye fan I am. However game recognize game & this right here is an ESPN highlight reel at its finest. Let us all enjoy the beauty of an Angel, yet us human refer to her as Stacey Dash.

lEGENDARY FILM

One of the most powerful films I have ever seen in my life. Im sure you are all on game & have seen it. I just had to to show the upmost appreciationI have for works like this. Even the trailer

is priceless. A true work of genius.

LOVE ON PAUSE

I honestly didn't mean for you to feel this way,
But all of a sudden your leaning into love like your on a segway
& I'm a programmed that a player just continues to play
So could we ever be serious together? Naw No way
I mean believe me when I say
That your almost damn near perfect in every single way
Just not perfect for me, ok?

Well let me put it to you like this,
I can't commit to anything right now, except working on my gift
& I know I did my part to make your feelings shift
But I didn't want your heart to be all in the mix
& damn that's where I guess one could say "Darrin is the shit"

So I'm not feelin myself when I say u don't kno what love is
Love is 24/7 dedicated to makin it in show biz
That's an accomplishment I need to work on, not wifey & kids
So just feel me when I say I never wanted any of this

Hell shoot
I just figured you were mad cute
Plus bomb personality now we're clicking together like 2 champange flutes
& I'm not 1 to water down lust but it taste a little dilute
But instead we stay covered all over it like a highway pursuit

So news coverage & weather reports couldn't predict this flood
& I just believe I'm dating while you tell me "Im in love"

"Ok that's cool I would always want you to do you & enjoy ur boo"
She smiles & says "no silly I'm in love with you"
Damn now what's a player like me to do?

I guess I have to finesse this mess & place you in the rear
Cuz I know my dreams are pretty clear
I just have to say good bye to you my dear
So please don't shed those tears
Since I am saving you from a fear
But look if u ever wanna talk about it understand that I'm hear
Any issues u need going through u can always use my ear
No matter what u could at least rely on me as a close peer
So just look at it like this a new beginning is near

-Darrin Elliot

WELCOME MAT

This is where we kick it into 2nd gear. The revolution is upon us & the hustle inside me has spoken. This is the emergence of the new era of everything for me. My whole sense of self is different & no longer is my biggest enemy myself. Its all new & refreshed as of now, this very second. My relationship with my loved 1's both family & friends. Dedication, work ethic, partnerships, seriousness, attitude ways I view women, ways I deal with lifes drama are all under a completely new lens. Those of you who currently now know me could say I'm just speaking out of my ass but I promise you this. You too will come to realize & say to yourself "Damn Dj is actin brand new"

But I assure you its not a matter of being brand new more so a matter finally waking up & putting myself before I put the thoughts & cares of others. This is the introduction of "B & R" the new kid on the block. Dj is Darrin Jr & BR is Butler Jr, yet this is the movement, the revolution, the new testament, so its bigger than me. Loyalty awailys prevail & Family above all.

Welcome to Bandits & Rockstars.

IGNITE

If this is the last thing that I ever had to write
I'd have to take it higher, let me spark up & ignite

Ok now inhale exhale for a new form of creativity
Someone you can relate to, who's not full of transparency

Now can I tell you what I see & how I feel?
Not tryna sound stuck up & brash just tryna keep it real

Ok so 1st off we have these young ass kids running around sexin
Not even taking the time to strap up with protection
But hell I guess shit will sink in when they catch a serious infection
I see yall looking at me like damn is he really bout to drop a lesson
Well I mean I gotta keep it real see so I advise viewer discretion

Now check us all out the black man in 2010 now & till forevea
See we the 1's that had to grow up during the George Bush Era
Where by now our legislative Government should've known betta
But instead they just rape & tax or ass like its just whateva

& George made us all stronger since he drank the cup dry
See this the generation where confidence sits at an all time HIGH
Where we need a little bit more than just Weed to get us by
We just lace up our fuckin capes & take to the sky
Tell me something can't be done? Bitch ima still go out & try
I see people race from 0-60 every time I open my eyes
If drake can come from no where then trick why can't I

Yea we feel ourselves like we're in a room that's padded & white
Insane in my own words in which I tirelessly write
My unmatched confidence is what helps me take flight
While my talent level keeps me alone with these hollywood nights
So as of now I rock aviators as I climb towards uv lime light
Elevate the style of expression, I just want to soar to new heights

But I highly doubt that this will be the last thing I ever write
Nonetheless I hope I could be he who in which helps you ignite

-Darrin Elliot

NOPE

Never been the type to parkin lot stunt
Never been the guy to match one & spark the blunt

Never been the type to club every week night
Never been the one to start bs drama & start a fight

Never been the one to spend 200 bux on J's
Never been to check for chicks on every single weekday

Never been to one to constantly hit the kickbacks
Never been the one to spit something on a sick track

Never been the kind to think & say that I'm shit (im lying)
Never ben the one to hit a chick only once then quit

Never been the one be up on all the urban street fits
Never been the one to refer to each woman as a bitch

Never been the guy who thinks I'm fly if only my rims sit high
Never been the one to start shit with whoever is walkin by

Never been the one to wanna start shit & drama
Never been the one to have 2 baby mommas

Shit I just never wanted to ever be like every other
So I stand out alone like no other

-Darrin Elliot

REALITY SETS IN

I would've been mad as fuck if I would've miss the bus
but then again I didn't wanna start off my work day with a cuse
& slur yet the night before I was surrounded by lust
I guess the condom of my rules & regulations was about 2 bust
so I don't really rely on self proclaimed trust
to control the always astounding love surrounding us
I just let the earth captivate us
self relay on bitter patterns of love & self disgust
now isn't my life real & unjust?

crystal clear as I double check the rear
use microscopic lenses to examine loves membranes
cuz they often smear
& leave a smudge upon our heart
see I believe that we are destined to doom from the start
God just judges us with his examination chart
& since its left for us to play our part
I just display my extraordinary large heart
now isn't that quite smart?

Since we only hook up for a few reasons
I ask myself can we make it through the seasons?

To answer that I guess I just gotta roll the dice
while I never look twice
so I take this pen & pad & constantly write

about you me & our situation
we jump out the window of lust without hesitation

Hoping that adult sense will come in & catch us
but we just let the sin filled nights out weigh us
so right before I'm bout to bust
I hold the stroke of disaster cause truthfully I don't wanna rush

I just want the best for us
since I feel like u can be 1 I learn to trust
let's just focus on the goal & lets just try to adjust

-Darrin Elliot

MIND

Artistic minds
like mine
are often hard to find
so in due time
never re wind
just inter twine

any thought words & artistic expression
understand that we think while teaching each lesson
the taming of a mind like ours is never done

so understand that our membranes stay hot as the sun
now partake in this lyrical fun
until our minds become united as one
& the battle ours & the war is won
let's take time to focus on what's still undone

but fuck it we just find time to procrastinate
then we last second scramble like we can't afford to be late
no isn't that some shit we all should hate?
I guess I'ma continue to fuckin wait
I'm lying I'm only going to scrape my plate
until the grind is over & they finally announce that I'm Great

-Darrin Elliot

MACKBOOK PHOTOSHOOT

BORED ON MY LAP TOP

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HANDLES 101

DEFINITELY ONE OF NIKES BEST COMMERCIALS. I STILL ENJOY IT.

RIGHT MIND SET

A lot was going through my mind when I wrote this...

when the gates of hell open up & push me to the wall
I decided right then & there to fuckin ball
Never gonna catch me on ma knees to beg & crawl

I'm the type to walk into a firing squad screaming "fuck em all"

So till the day the casket drops
Ima let you bastards try to stop

yea try & knock me

Confident yet cocky
I really believe only God himself could stop me
Pushing for these hollywood scripts to never lock me

Only increase my bank account by adding a few more zeros
Inspires to be the best maybe even a few kids # 1 hero

Let's just take a look at it, who do they really have
I mean 2pac been passed
& we're tired of kobes cocky ass
So ima step up & treat everyone like they are apart of my class
Built ford tough, so my durability makes me out last
We take a flight to the top, penthouse elevators move kinda fast

Now let me do what needs to be done for the art
Study the industry inside & out operate with much smarts
While I stay motivated & connected by my unique ass heart
My love for the game will never force me to leave & depart
I mean for the most part
I have every single reason to believe I'm ahead of the chart
Now let's mix mental with lyrical, here is where I kick start

I just act like I'm supposed to act,
I just want a few oscars & emmy plaques
Add a few Plazzo suite nights we just take the sin & subtract
Greater than or equal the dividends of a credit card that's black
Now find the sum of a actor who is totally whack

Mulitply the people he knows & find he percent of the sho biz
See in this industry its who you know, not what it is
my contact list is just fewer than his
So untill I update my blackberry I just gotta understand this

"I WILL NOT LOSE"

-Darrin Elliot

1ST BACHELOR PAD

This was one hell of a function (well the after math at least) I miss my old apartment in the valley and forgot of how much fun I had. Heres a clip that I had uploaded from the event. Shout out to my roomies and Bobby Young.

MOTIVATION

"I only aspire to someday reach their level of greatness"

-Darrin Elliot

L-O-V-E- NO MORE

THIS ONE IS SPECIAL TO ME, I REALLY FELT A REMINISCENT PAIN AS I WAS WRITING THIS. VERY COMMON IN RELATIONSHIPS, YET VERY RARE IN LOVING 1'S

ENJOY.

I just can't keep loving you anymore

you took my heart & smashed it in the door
I've never even felt like this before
I mean at once my love for you use to sore
But now its like your not the same person anymore
You switched faces on me & I'm trying to see what for

& I've prayed, prayed & prayed until my knees hurt
I mean for us I would do whatever I had to,to make us work
you attempt to drive me crazy, yet I've arrived at berserk

yes I can't love you since it hurts to be insane
you say "you love me" but I know you say that shit in vein
I literally loved you more than myself, I guess I lost my brain
crying myself to sleep all alone left in the rain
You've giving me more suspenseful drama than author mark twain
so I look to myself not the librarian for the blame
yet this simple fact remains

"I fucking made you bitch I can't believe you hurt me
I even introduced you to my whole & extended family
& this is how you want to repay me??
did I really deserve to be pushed to this degree??
you must want to placed in the penitentiary
cause I could kill you for this shit B "
double homicide & 1 suicide kill both you & me

I guess those Bellagio suites & Atlanta trips were really worth it
Breaking my neck for you trying to act & write us pact perfect

I guess that's what dad said when he told me life is not a script
Yet if it were you & I are closing act three in this bitch

So since I just can't love you any more
leave your recipe for heartbreak on the table on your way out the door

Yes cause I can no longer do this & we could no longer be
& with that alone I'm no longer fuckin with L-O-V-E

-Darrin Elliot

UNDISPUTED BEST

I miss raw talent, I miss originality & I miss honesty. With that being said let me pause for a second for I am about to morn.

Yes I miss the greatest to ever do it, & the best to ever inspire. The one & only Tupac Shakur.

Now I am a die hard Biggie, Jay Z, Andre 3000, & Eminem fan, I think those are some of the most talented guys to ever grace a mic. However when it comes to myself, Darrin Elliot I believe that Tupac is the one who I can relate to the most. Of recently I've been looking at a lot his work & a man who passed away 14 years ago is now a mentor of mine. His attitude & work ethic are now things in which drive me to do great things & use my God giving abilities to not only to artistically enrich our world but to also inspire others. So how does a man who passes away over a decade ago still hold relevance to today's Hip-Hop culture? Well for starters his raw honesty set precedence & its definitely something in which is lacking in artist of now. But wait here's this new comer Drake.

Now don't get me wrong I'm a drake fan as of now, but dude still has a lot to prove. The main thing about pac that separates him from other artist is his work ethic & his ability to speak on every topic.. From "dear mama" to "hit em up" and even "life goes on" he was able to not only speak on every topic but yet also feel his passion & love for all his songs.

In closing we live in a dull era of hip-hop/rap where mediocrity runs rapid. I fully doubt that there will ever be another tupac, yet I myself aspire to become a poet as big as he. Not a rapper, not a MC yet another poet another artist. He will forever motivate & inspire me like no other one could.

"My music is not for everyone. It's only for the strong-willed, the [street] soldiers music. It's not like party music- I mean, you could gig to it, but it's spiritual. My music is spiritual. It's like Negro spirituals, except for the fact that I'm not saying 'We shall Overcome.' I'm saying that we are overcome." -2pac

-Darrin Elliot

THE REALEST ANGEL

Now back when I was residing at the legion of doom
Mrs so fly happens to land in my room
Now who am I to assume
That she is fit for a groom
When in reality she could have flown in here on a broom
& really turn out to be a wicked witch from the moon

But hey I was taught to let players play
So I just simply begin to say
Cutie pie are you lost or from around this way?

She smiles & says no I'm from a place called love
Where roses unfurl in the winter time just because

Where the sun shines almost 99% of the time
& the other 1 % is when I close my eyes
& to my surprise
It was then when I realized
That she was in no disguise

So our eyes begin to inter-lock
as I form the most beautiful thought

I see her sit as a beautiful life teaching instrument
See this is love from above this angel was heaven sent

So my lips begin to utter as I say "well why is it that you are here?"
She replies "to enhance thought provoking love my dear
For since we all have to shed tears

& we all felt love in some way shape or form
So its my job to smile upon the storm

& also my job to also help you reach for the sky
For until you open your own wings babe you cannot fly
& this laziness of yours must now begin to die
Because your talent level is far to high"

so she then lights this fire underneath my ass
we examine my present & view my past
See this everyday routine must come to pass
She then whispered in my ear & said "God made you to last"

-Darrin Elliot

LEAKING SOUL

Since my soul internally bleeds
I guess my medicine is a pen & pad, that's all I need
I don't really look to the weed, or

The expensive therapy chairs yapping to PHD's

I mean Hell
You could even place me in a cell
Just let me write everyday & I could even learn to enjoy jail
3 hots in a cot plus I'm writing sounds pretty swell
But shit that's what I do already couldn't you even tell

That every day my writing gets better
Just listen to my work, by now u should see the flow is wetter
More wholesome & warming than that of a Bill Cosby sweater
The shit that I write could even inspire you to do better

I act like I alone can preform CPR on poetry & spoken word from its cardiac
If I have to I would place all this artistic shit upon my back
Without ever having to look ever back

Cause I know that my rights could ever out do my wrongs
I just simply hope that my righteousness prevails in the long
See lord knows I'm not that strong

But his love inside me only makes me keep going

So I won't stop until I get enough
Like that 1st time cocaine like rush
My artistic style is that of a Mj fade away plus Kobe Bryant clutch
But trust
I never really brag that much

I'm just able to say that this poetry shit right here is what I've really been needing
The only thing to stopping the artistic soul of mine from Bleeding

-Darrin Elliot

PERFECT DREAM

I wrote this one a while ago, hope you can still appreciate where I'm coming from..

I wake up in the A.M. both my baby's head upon my chest
My wife walks in the room her beauty @ its best

The air is crisp the sun is at a bright glow
The clouds are perfect no sign of rain nor snow

I get dressed very smooth only wearing the finest linen
a single kiss from my wife gets my day off & spinnin

Hop in my car & enjoy the beauty bestowed upon the sky
I sit with my baby boy & girl, my equal sitting at my side

We drive to the bank, the store & end at the park
My kids on the swings, my wife & myself just let love spark

We talk about the good times bad times & what is to come
We look at our seeds & see our future is bright as the sun

We always spend time together in angelic like harmony
We know the importance of a strong Christian based family

My daughter is more than a heaven sent instrument
She tells daddy the best hide n seek places which are well kept

My son is only 5 yet his goals are higher than anything in the sky
1 day he's a fireman, doctor, dinosaur & even the speed racer guy

My wife is true definition of what a flawless beauty has 2 be
Her grace is pure elagence that's how its defined 2 me

I stand as a man buried in riches, gold & wealth
Because I have true love, a great family & much of Gods help

-Darrin Elliot

FEW EPIC PIECES

Andy Warhol & Jean-Michel Basquiat

-Basquiat's paintings

-Darrin Elliot

LEGENDARY ART

Now one of my favorite artist, the one who introduced me to art, is Jean-Michel Basquiat. My mother took me to MOCA in Downtown Los Angeles back in 2005 and right then and there I fell in love with his work. I thought each & every single one of his works were epic in a sense of revolution and really bringing the best out of Neo-Expressionism. Now for those of you who are art majors and want to debate his works of being more glorified due to Andy Warhol's celebrity I would only disagree. I can tell you the difference between notoriety and talent and Basquiat's Works were definitely talented. This guy defined Neo-Expressionism and remember Neo- Expressionist paintings were more concerned with displaying spontaneous emotion rather than traditional conventions. This man was ahead of his time and as they do say the good die young. We are forever left with his work and hopefully we can come to appreciate it. This video is a clip from an upcoming documentary about his life that I will surely have to snatch up, hope you enjoy.

-Darrin Elliot

PASSION FOR THE GAME

So let me break down my love & passion for the art of Drama & Acting. Now throughout the majority of my life I've been considered a jock, the guy who only loves sports & loves to play them. Today I'm still that same man however the "only" part is dropped. Around 2 years ago I feel in love with a new found passion which became acting. My chiropractor & former agent introduced me to an opportunity to do a modelling gig for nike. I made the audition & the next week I was on set.

Now from this moment I seen & tasted a glimpse of spotlight. It was addictive. As well as also being very natural so again another audition came up this time for a jordan commercial. I made the audition & the addiction only grew & the passion only intensified. Now there is nothing more liberating that liberation itself, & when in character you lose sight of self. You as a person no long have emotions or personality, you simply channel a perception you have of that character & hopefully the casting director, director, producers, script supervisor & your fellow cast & crew agree with your efforts & performance. It take a lot, but that's what I'm willing to give.

My form of formal training you ask me? I have none, I simply read & tirelessly study actors & training books. I believe passion & determination alone can get you anywhere aside from that I am also going to be working with coaches in the near future. Hopefully I'm right & I can get on my grind, the way that I want to. The only person standing in my way is me, so in that regard alone I'm definitely going all out.

The road to the top always starts from the bottom so, with that being said I have a long way to go, & I love & look forward to the challenges in which await me.

-Darrin Elliot