CHEST RELEASE

What goes into my head? There are no words to go by
Yet I still write tirelessly to the point to where I'll try
An impossible task see I'm hard headed nonetheless
& if you think this a poem then take a second guess

This is where I vent through the deepest most suffocating fog
& it just so happens to be that the source is this blog
Now let my brain exercise 1st before we start this lyrical jog

As I warm up I just want it to be known, that yes I believe I'm the best
But not because of talent alone, simply because I'm blessed
I cheated death 3 times & I now see life is not a test
Still I sometimes cry myself to sleep just to allow my eyes to rest

See back in the summer of 2002
There was a party I went to
& everything started off cool

But somebodies ex came through
& I wasn't tripping when he started banging DaMu
But I did start to trip when he seen that I was rocking blue

A punch in the face & 5 shots later, I made it out alive
I was 14 at the time & almost lost my life

The second time I don't like to ever speak of
Just know God sent me 1 of his best from above

& I will never speak of that one for obvious reasons

Just know & understand that i really like breathing

& the 3rd of my nine lives came when I fell of that bike
War wounds on my arm so I think about that day every night
& to relive that feeling often brings back an intense fright
So sometimes when I dream, I often scream on the inside

That's a normal pain that I deal with on the daily
& don't mention the fact that the oldest of 8 is still viewed as a baby
Yes my own family truly believes that I'm destined to lose
It hurts yet its bittersweet since now I have a reason to prove
Myself Darrin Elliot it is I, paying my dues
Hopefully my balance breaks even before I get done with school

Chasing Hollywood, big dreams & cashmere thoughts flutter my head
Truly believe that my bank account will someday say "Massive bread"
Spoke with the devil, more than I do God & this is what he said

"Don't look to the world to find compassion, welcome the pain
Allow it to fall on your skull like a summers rain
& when it is your time to reign
In my kingdom you will remain"

& when he spoke to me, he didn't even say that shit in vein
In fact we spoke as if we'd be destined for fame

Now in this attempt to spill out my heart I'm going to start
& say that through my fuck ups others played their part

For starters mi familia is mainly why my head is sick
But its OK, because I've already forgotten them kinda quick
So when BIG money comes around, they won't ask me for shit
& don't get me started on these chicks, that I messed with

Each of them did whatever it is they did & played their part

Somehow in some way they each affected my heart

But the love i want still hasn't even sparked

I mean honestly that's a sad reality that i have to swallow

who are they you ask well the list goes as follows :

A chick whose the epitome of legit
A ghetto chick who loved to drink & hit
A chick with a baby who just broke down & quit
A model who thought she was the shit
A baddy who just got up & split
A weed head chick who constantly forgets
A party girl who's off to the club real quick

But from all these souls there's something good to go with
They were all down & helped me to the fullest
Some more than others that's why I'm on some brand new shit

As I take the weight of the world I continue to rack up plates
& lifts this shit up & down like its a piece of cake
So no don't you dare ask me if I'm OK,
Couldn't walk a day in my shoes, you don't possess what it takes

& I'm not here complaining see I know life is hard for everybody
& when I write this I'm not taking shots at anybody

I'm just saying what I feel I must for me to keep sane
Don't try to feel my pain
Just understand that all I need is me & I'm cool to maintain
See back in 05 there was this chest, desire, & flame
Put them all in my heart & its one in the same
Screenplays to books & poetry to me its all the same
Just do me this 1 favor & never forget my name

Don't you ever, ever forget my name

-Darrin Elliot

REFUND

If this will be the last thing you ever here me say
Let it be known that I never wanted it to turn out this way
You were once my heart & gave light to my darkest day
Now we are separated because of a love price we couldn't pay

So for the 1st & last time, please hear me out
Let's not shout
& have a chance to talk about
All the things in which make our love sprout
Like when your lip curls when you get mad & pout

Or how about when you got mad at me for going to DC
But then became excited when you seen it was to get on tv
All of the functions with my close & distant family
I take at look at what we used to be
& I now see, that's what helped make me
Understand we made us strong, so now its harder to break me

But if this will be the last thing you ever here me say
Allow me to tell you thank you for helping DJ

Yes it took longer than expected but late is better than never
& its really ok that we couldn't be together
See whether or not we'd like to admit it, we are from the same feather

So thank you thank you, you're far too kind
I'm just glad I had the chance to ever call you mine

-Darrin Elliot

FAR TOO OFTEN...

Same shit different day
Don't you get tired of the game you play?
My dude let's look at the fact list OK?

OK sitting there at 24 you haven't made an attempt to make you
I mean you barely work minimum wage & aren't even in school
But every weekend still in clubs fresh fits like your the epitome of cool

you always complain but still live at the house with your parents
& that's not bad but your comfortable, that's apparent

Get a check spend a check, not financial literate
Have a baby but don't raise your baby, dude you are just ignorant?

Not to judge but I'm telling you, you have to change
Trying your damnedest to stunt in your mommas range
Do me a favor bro pull chicks your own age
Stop driving by high schools acting like you got it made

Child support checks building sky high
But new iPhone & designer shirts make you appear extra fly
Let's not talk about cash for kush which makes you extra high
Constant strip club visit just so your favorite employees can say hi

We got to do better bro, take a second to fix it
Because at this rate your just another statistic

-Darrin Elliot

BRIDE TO BE

I wish you would walk out of my life
I did everything for you, you were supposed to be my wife
Fuck, now you want some time off, this shit can't be nice
I gave you the best five ears of my life

No bitch, sit your ass back down
See now I'm pissed, you wanted to bring my evil side back around

I did right by you, I never cheated, even though I had many a chance
You always say "your far better than any of my friends mans"
& we've constantly made beautiful marriage plans
even put together a five star honey moon in the south of France
Now you want to take on this cowardly dance

No that's not how I roll you're ass ain't leaving at all
Please sit that ass back down before I make your head meet that wall
& you know that I'm no bad guy at all
I even let your mom move in when she was sick last fall
I just got a better job too, so now we can really ball
But I guess you rather throw us to the dust and all

Sorry but I've put far too much invested in you
We came along way been together since high school
& I just want the best for you
So allow me to do what it is I need to do

No baby don't cry, I didn't mean to make you sad
But I'll be dammed if you leave me, see I want this bad
So here's what we'll do before this gets outta hand
I'm going to handcuff you baby, to this bed stand
& here is an acidic compound which will paralyze your throat
See I don't need you to scream & have the neighbors woke
See you thought I was playing but our love is no joke

By the time I'm through with you I will make you re-see

That we are destined to be

Just make sure you don't call the police

See I love you baby I never wanted to start a fight
So I'm leaving you locked in the basement, think about us good night

-Darrin Elliot

DARRINS DECLARATION

I'm really doing it, each & every day
I let go of some baggage now I have much lighter weight
Those of you who are no longer in my life today, Its OK,
I'm broadcasting it, so you can watch from far away

That was a double meaning, See I'm working on something big,
When it all comes together I'm sure most of you will dig

Something so deep, so authentic, non fabricated, so real
I'm aiming to grab your hearts place passion in & begin to fill

It with compassion, understanding & love
I'm on this mission & road to success & hopefully up above

See I do what I can but most importantly I do what I must
Cause at the end of the day its in God whom I trust
So until the day when I become dust
I'm going hard like a tech nine in which has to bust

So allow time for me to get where I'm going
See as of now its just starting to pick up & rolling
See I love every second of it, just the satisfaction of knowing
That me as a man I'm here & I'm growing
So thank you Lord for this very second & showing,

Me the light & the way
This is I, Dj
The underdog who's here to stay
So all you pessimist please get the hell out of my way

-Darrin Elliot

CROSS 798

I love you more than I love life itself
Yet the only issue I have is that my love is never felt
I do everything that I can, however I'm still placed on this shelf
What can I do for you to love me back? I need help

Because truthfully all I want is for you to love me
Love the man whom I'm destined to be
See where I'm coming from & peep my destination please
Because if you can't grasp me then I'm already resting in peace
It just hurts that our prime time was back in your memories

& I was only a little boy who hardly knew what to do
Given a second chance I'm 200% sure I would've made smarter moves
Yet instead I'm just sitting here with my heart break blues
I mean take a deep look at my arm & this bruise
Wouldn't you agree that these last years I've been paying my dues?

& see that's a question in which you shouldn't have to answer I'm sorry
I just wish that you loved me for me, I failed, so I apologize mommy.

-Darrin Elliot

July 26th

Today is the day I begin the rest of my life
I'm done with the drama, the bullshit, the strife
Its like I took the old me, & committed suicide with a knife

Don't look at this one for artistic & plain
Just look at this one, like I'm understanding the game
Before to me it just all felt the same
But now sitting here at 22 won't make anything change

See there is no reason why I shouldn't aspire to the top
I'm on the road to climb higher till I stop

I will cease this dream when the sun itself will no longer shine
Which means that I am on my fucking grind
So by any means I'm going to get mine
Do whatever is morally best for myself to see big time
& I'm about to enter my prime

See I got this
So I'm an optimist
When it comes to my self & my goals
& I'm almost sure these motivational poems of mine are getting old
Never the one to admit when my flow is cold
Just now I have to put the cards down, yet never to fold

See this is the blast off the birth of the struggle
Allow me to introduce my self Darrin Elliot Mr Hustle

-Darrin Elliot

MY PERSPECTIVE

I just want you to see, what it is that I see
Your the most beautiful soul who needs a discussion with destiny,
See she can point in the direction where you'll find the key,
You keep avoiding her & you'll run into her sister misery,
That bitch is worst than this one chick I messed with, I call her defeat
She was the one who had a dude like me buckle to my knees,
She made me hate myself even fought away my dreams

But now its your turn to finally listen

& team up with my good friend, ambition,
See I wouldn't assign you two partners if you weren't in this position,
You both just hop in the car pool lane for success & avoid a collision

Yeah that bitch defeat will pull you over or even give u a DUI
But if that happens just shoot up a prayer to the most high
That's the big homie aka the big guy
He's always watching over & loving you, yeah he's mad fly

See he goes by the name of faith

When I fell off my bike we arranged our first date
& it was no mistake

but it was only then I caught my true 1st big break
Doctors said I was 2 seconds from losing my head to a parked brake
So for Jesus sake

Please do better for yourself than what I could do for me
Just take that blind date with that baddy named destiny

-Darrin Elliot

Malibu Music

Sitting in awe
two children aiming an attempt to break the law
enjoying their affection & above all

they just have each other and no other
not the kind of shit that is between sister & brother
but the undying compassion of a unique lover
yes the wind beneath my wings

yes and even as corny as it seems

she remains the sweetest girl in my dreams

never the one to switch jerseys and label teams

to her I'm her King & she is my Queen

survived the worlds worst drama in search of a ring

But don't shout MVP for me when i attempt a free throw

just understand that this is how the players roll

yes I'm aiming to always let you know

that my love for you babe will forever grow

but the realist shit is still laying ahead hidden the snow

so for now we will wait for spring to show

Lets just tell the weatherman to bring it in with a bright forecast

since autumn season was the past the only difference is that you & I are made to last

-Darrin Elliot

PAUSE

They Tell me God puts different people in your life for many different reasons,

Then why cant I seem to keep one in place for just a single season?

I mean when it comes to the good in people I’m all for believing

But never did I think that you would be the one doing the leaving

Yes it was you who bailed on me,

Took me aside and painted out your destiny,

Asked for a little push and I was right there to help set you free,

Took time for mental spiritual and even aimed at physically,

Yet I’m still placed at my own degree,

Hurts to fully understand that I stand alone in my own pedigree

But even my pastor once told me that the problem I have with myself is myself,

So I took a trip to the mental ward & even they said they could not help,

Placed my true emotions to the side & left them on a shelf,

This heart of mine is like a living hell

I hope you forgive me see I never meant wrong,

I tried to be patient the wait was just too long,

I would’ve did all for you but the feelings weren’t as strong,

I just hope that you get along,

With him or me I just want to paint to the most beautiful song,

My will & you’re intentions need to find a place where they belong

Lets look at this learn from the mistake

Placed rapid emotions on a very unstable stake

Which can evolve into a rather unpleasant head ache

Lets just take this pause to catch a very needed brake

See I’m not one to repeat myself because hell I’m far from fake

-Darrin Elliot

END RESULT

Walking towards success the life I lead is kinda neat
Cush clouds blown from my tri levels suite

Executive script writer, world renowned thespian star
Looking back on my life looks like I came from a far

But above all I still head for this very destination
Never to look back at mistakes or 2nd guess me no hesitations
Built off kicking my own procrastination
Because I worked hard to arrive at this very location
I just add my work ethic plus dreams now I'm left with creation
So take notation

This is how the Bandits do our thing
Not addicted to the bling
But yes addicted to the dream
That fact that I can become anything
Bigger than diddy SO yes I Am King

-Darrin Elliot

HIS KEEPER

I just want you to understand where I'm coming from
See this repetitive drama thing we constantly do has been done
& since birth you swore to me that I will always be #1
So why do we put caution tape around your 2ND son?

I mean honestly I would really like to know,
Because keeping him sheltered is only going to make him slow
All the while when I was 8 I jumped out the window yelling let's go

That is how I was bred & will breed my seed
I guess because I want him to know his opponents so he can succeed

I'm not going to baby him until he sees life as soft
I'm going to give him a receipt & show him what this costs
& Since only one of us is truly boss
I suggest to myself I'll take the blame & bear its cross

See this is why I get so mutha fucking frustrated
Because I'm trying with all my heart to take a heart & liberated
But I see my attempts will continue to become deflated
Dj class of 1 the only real nigga to have graduated

-Darrin Elliot

END

Tired, I just can't keep allowing my heart to ache
Miscues after failed attempts I guess I don't have what it takes
& I feel like my soul is tough but its my mind that's at the break
But to chase & fully obtain my dreams what the hell does it take
I don't have it so I guess my heart has met its stake
Stick a fork in him he's done turn off the pre heat
The devil won & he got me beat

I can't do it by myself I thought my will was strong
Its not now I have to just carry on

Pay bills honor taxes & raise kids
Contribute to this world & forget show biz
The life I live is had as is
No help from no one but if I tasted glory they would all want some of his
To quit the game now at 23 is hard for me
But don't look at this bow out full of sympathy

I just graciously look at it as a man I'm going to be
The one who never touched what he attempted to reach
So I just look at it like the my dreams have broken into piece

-Darrin Elliot

LAZY

L-A-Z-Y
I bet when the checks come around she won't act shy
Expect the world from me like I'm that kinda guy
I forgive but never forget shit & by then I'm expecting a lie
But hell until then I'm just in finesse mode watch time go by

This is where the G's reside
& I say the word G often because that's clearly what I go by
So take a look into my eyes
& of course its no surprise
On the course ahead l & what lies

In front of my path
I approach the task
Like a nerd to math
Anyone stepping in my way will feel my wrath

& I promise I will not stop until my last breath
Determined to make it there & remain the last that's left

-Darrin Elliot

START RACE

We can't stop it right now, & hit reset
But we can go forward in this moment with no more regret

See I've broken my fair share of hearts & that feeling isn't great
Yet I'm still undisputed as the one you love to hate
I accept the fact that I'm hardly ever late
Walk tall with my head up & aim to graduate
See this course of life is one that no one can ace
So let's all just try to slow down the pace

Yes

or

No

Aim for the top but I just set the speed to slow
Because I know it in my heart I have a lot of me to grow
& I'm not ready for my heart to put on the final show
I just aim for the jugular & take a final blow
Astounded to say the least but in my face it hardly ever shows

Determined & aspired to make the best out of the worst
Not to say mine is yet its easy to say I was born with a curse
& this literary mind of mine
Wonders around often to find
A way to stay straight of an unthinkable crime
I walk around like shit is often fine
Yet I do assure you this brain I have is one of a kind

See I just take my losses & accumulate my wins
Just spoke to the love of my life, we discussed each others sins
So now is when the 2nd quarter begins

On your mark, get set let's go.

-Darrin Elliot

LETTER 2

Dear You,

1st & foremost fuck you & everything you stand for
It takes no energy for me to attempt to let my wings sore
Yes window of opportunity is scarce but I'm running through the door

That's the 1st step & see I live my life with no regrets
If life itself was easy then great minds wouldn't call it a test
So no need to study or even cheat off of whoever is the best

I just know it takes time to become great, right now I'm at Ok
& the last time I checked Rome wasn't built in a day

This is what makes boys out of men
The will to get up & try over & over again
Cause when it comes to the law of nature you either sink or swim
& I'm the type whose destined to win
Yeah I just spoke with God & he left me with in a grin

So I'm going to take flight & go after what life has to offer
Cause I can do all things through God & no weapon formed against me shall prosper

-ME

LETTER 1

Dear me,

Give up by now let this dream shit die out & be
If it was destined for you to make it then you would have see
All these young cats making millions, you think your good as he?
No.

See

That's why your still a man inspector stuck at TSA
God blessed you on the field & you just threw that shit away
Not even like you were that good, you never made USA TODAY

Fucked up the best chick he ever placed in your life
Had everything going good too, she was destined to be your wife
& of course you let your jealous actions cause pain & strife
Been single ever since even attempted suicide with a knife

But no you couldn't do it you fucking pussy, you can't even die
Again if God gave you wings by now you would've learned to fly
Give this Hollywood acting writing shit a break no more re-tries
Just get a better 9-5 find a chick whose down to ride
I feel sorry for you man you have nothing to show not even a ride

& besides so what who cares about your family, all ours suck
Just chuck the deuces at this thing called luck
I mean I truthfully don't give a flying fuck

About your lame ass dad
Or misleading mom
Alcoholic step dad
Or sensitive grandma whose always wrong
Just grow some balls and be strong

I mean not to sound harsh but you gotta grow up son
Truth hurts plus I'm tired of seeing you hurt, its over & done.

PS this blog shit for lames, holla at me when your tired of these games

-You

REALITY MOTTO

Truthfully, I don't even want to write this
I'm tired of being artistic
You all don't appreciate shit
I say this because if it were true then I would've felt it
Its 3:15 in the morning & I'm bout to start this bull shit shift
With people who don't even deserve the check they get
Lazy bastards could come & get it
But I don't trip,I just do me & get with it

See the thing is that I really don't care much about shit
Just my family & making sure I get on legit
Even half the friends I have aren't about dick
But hey I just stroke they egos until I come quick

With an anti weak flow like mine, I could never go premature
Spreading my seeds out now so my finesse will forever endure
The future seasons of what you lame -O's have in store
Ima just step on the scene like Clark Kent & take sore

Above all & over it all you could never call me a bore
I just do what I have to, accumulate funds to make sure

I can one day run away from all this fucking drama
Hate the fact that I could never rely on my dad or even my mama
The 3 biggest women in my life don't care & view me as weak
So the question is why do I try to make it for them by any means?

I don't know.

three little words to express my mind l & it shows
That above all the drama pain & self pity
I still love & care for them until my heart runs empty

So until the time has came & I'm gone six in the dirt
By any means I'm getting mine & I'm gonna make this shit work

-Darrin Elliot

X-RATED

One year anniversary so tonight I gotta put in work
Sex so good, I'm going to make your stomach hurt

So as soon as we walk into the Hilton suite
I just lift you off your feet
Wrap you legs around me while we set the oven to pre-heat

Yes kissing, biting, scratching, I proceed with the licking
I then hoist while I make it moist don't care if time is ticking
Yeah its only the beginning
& my small circles on your neck make your head start spinning

I grab you by the neck as I kiss & lick from chest to navel
Remove your thong with my mouth just to show you I'm able

Spread the lips with two fingers while I tease the middle
Up & down tongue motions going from big to little

Releasing the breaks I hum on it, to make it feel vibrated
Savouring every drop as if I'm long past dehydrated

I don't stop until I hear about the 3rd sex cry
Make my way back to your mouth to keep the passion alive

Now your wobbly determined self is trying to go south
My pants become undone you grip my pipe & insert into you're mouth
You perfect plumber you, you show me this is no joke
Sucking, gagging, stroking now I feel the back of your throat

You show the balls affection too, so you kinda gurgle & motor boat
You perfect the stroke, you just want to keep titanic afloat

So right before I elevate I shove you off the rod
I almost came in 5 minutes damn you did a good job

But now here I go Mr. employee of the year
Insert myself in you & already your holding back feel good tears

Slowly stroke it out while making you shout, I'm drilling you on your back legs bent all the way back
I love hearing that sound when your ass & my pelvis clap
& that's a known fact
So I increase the pace flip you on your knees now its a wrap

Doggy style, screwdriver & reverse cow girl, its all the same
But when I break out the jack knife you then remember my name

Go Dj Go Dj cuz that's my Dj like it's a weezy song
Smell from the sex itself is getting kinda strong
So I just suck on your supple nipples I can do no wrong

Lick the neck bite the ear while hitting it from the rear
Your body's multiple orgasm's force you to shed a few tears
Now we are almost in the clear

But every other four strokes I take it out lick the clit & re-insert
This technique I learned is only to make you go bizerk

So the thrusts itself went hardest until I run the tank on E
We scream & shout shiver & quake & enjoy this ecstasy

-Darrin Elliot

GEISHA SEASON

I made you drive down this way for a reason
See it seemed like my motivation was out of season
& the determination I have never exceeds believing
Just thought Hollywood blvd would inspire some achieving

See you are put in my life to do what you can
Unlike most I'm putting together a rather unconventional plan
I aim for a dream which fly's higher than superman powers
& when I get there it will be a day to remember like losing the twin towers

But no act of terror against myself could ever inspire fear
I just chuck the deuces at self pity as I know dreams are near
So this right here is where the picture gets clear
So I double park the delorean check my mirror in the rear
Fast forward to the future making choices as I go

You being in my life for sure only what I know

I push for greatness only to come up short
& what's crazy is who really knows what God has in Store
So I just continue to cut out my coupons & place em in the kitchen drawer

Yes discount on life & all its hardships,
I just look myself in the mirror
Will I ever amount to shit?

Possibly yes
Or possibly no
remember the delorean? Yes now I'm driving slow
See I'm here doing what it is I love everyday
So in a sense my soul has begun to fly away

Away from myself towards the sun & its beam
The fire has re lit inside, I'm now headed for my dream

-Darrin Elliot

LaRoc

I'm not mad at you but I still wish you were here
So I'm left to stand alone in my tears
Fight away all my life's fears without my God father being near

Since the day you left life just hasn't been the same
The one who help mold me & taught me much needed game
All I have left is you is memories plus us in a picture frame
Who would've thought that you & me would ever change
Wish I could take place with you & just call it a rearrange

you even taught me how to throw a football back in 93 fall
Helped me grow & face my fears, now I'm 6'2 tall
With a heart that is bigger than any of them all

Against all odds I'm still aiming for my dreams
& what's crazy as it seems
I still believe that you are proud of me
So I have to do my part to protect the goal & approach it with steam
Keep god 1st & only remain on his team
Cause you told me that with him I can achieve all things

I will Scott I will, I have to at least for the memory of you
& what hurts is how I never expressed this shit to you

Time after time again
I just sat back & thought you were the man
You are it just hurts that you left this land
But a soul like yours is a bigger part of God's game plan

Just know I love you for being my dad when one wasn't present
I guess that's why your really heaven sent
I love you Scott thank you for all the time we spent
I appreciate it all & the man who is you
R.I.P Scott Laroc my god father through & through

-Darrin Elliot

REFLECTIVE PERSPECTIVE

Until the day that I rest
Darrin Elliot will remain screaming he's the best
I'm speaking in 3rd person now so you know I'm a mess
Real nigga walking, I'm 1 of the last that's left

Because 99.9 % of this game is fabricated
Like including my friends even they too seem saturated
I guess this is why I often feel alone & hated
But until we get better as a people then I rather feel isolated

That's what separates them from me
Im the type to never been in pursuit of popularity

I just laugh as the rest take turns becoming clones
See my life is all that I've ever known
So to myself I'm a king to my own throne

The money doesn't hold me I & could give a fuck less about J's
I just want God to forgive & let me in, cleanse my wicked ways

See that's what we fail to focus on we are the youth lost
Granted we are the youth that is the most boss
But dammit look at what the hell it cost?

-Darrin Elliot

FOREVER US

Tonight is your night
So tell me what you wanna do
We can keep it tight
Or the intimate rendezvous
Don't think about a thing
Just know I got you
Queen to your king
Just tell me what you wanna do
We can stay in the house,
Or paint the town red & blue
Either way I'm still taking off that blouse,
See you & I together belong on the same team
Life with you thus far has been a perfect dream
& I don't need to reiterate that I'm destined to be your love king
So we make sure that we hardly ever part
This feeling of magnified infatuation has never felt this smart
You must hold a Masters & Doctrine in taming my heart
Since its like this
& we sit in this bliss
We just continue heaven with every single kiss
Talks of the future days of raising our kids
Bad asses running around while I tackle show biz
No that was a joke, you know I'm the kind of man who handles his
& the crazy thing about reality is
Its only a matter of time until it really happens like this

See I said tonight is your night
We can continue to let our infatuation's take flight
But until the day where we can sit wherever we like
I'm just going to be patient as history continues to write

Our chapter
Our page
Our legacy
Our stage
Our story
Our part
Our start

Yet let the history book should always mention this
"There was never another a love like hers & his"

-Darrin Elliot

LIGHT TO TRUE

Writer, actor, Executive Assistant & professional bag checker
Aspiring artist former P.I , & currently #1 ranked home wreck' er
That's me mr D to the J
Getting off charter flights from phoenix to LA
Where the gangsters & players lay
& the truth comes to the light even on the darkest day

so let me spit out what I came here to say

Ugh Umm

I'm not gonna be here forever, ok that's the apparent
Terrified of reality & the possibility of becoming a parent
& truthfully my souls past tormented
So whoever takes my heart seriously is playing them self off top
Because where I'm from the real shit never stops
equivalent to that feeling of when the casket drops
Heartless to say the least but a realist to the fullest
Tired of beg ridiculed yet always nominated as 1 of the coolest

Tired of the now so I'm bout to focus on the next
Real nigga shit let me start to exercise my best
See if we evaluate that life itself is a test
Let's just say fuck the rest & muster up all that's left

Yes

So until my last breath you see me Darrin Elliot & no secondary
For on this very day we all become legendary

-Darrin Elliot

PAIN & HURT

This feeling is far to unreal, I can't believe it
My heart walked out of my chest & its no secret
That when you left you took it, & it looks like you'll keep it

I can't eat I can't sleep, bills just get ignored
Friends came to check on me, yet I don't answer my door
I don't think I ever felt like this before
I need a band-aid over my heart cuz this shit is past sore

I guess I scraped away my fair share off loves plate
So now every 2 seconds I feel like I need to regurgitate
I look in the mirror & the face I see I just now hate
This shit is the worst you & me used to be great
But now your gone & its just too late

& I'm lost cause you won't aim, tweet, email, call or even text
So its a cold feeling to realize that my wifey is now my ex
I would've sworn that I did my very best
Yet it now seems like I'm just like the rest

Please come back I'll beg you till my knees bleed
See truthfully you're all that I really want & need
I swear I would even kill for us to somewhat succeed
What do you want from me? Hell I'll even stop with the weed

Fuck my friends I'll kick them to the side too
Baby just tell me what it is that I have to do
See I desperately need you
Without my air, what should I expect my lungs to do

How can I live? How do u expect me to go on?
This hurts & my heart feels gone

-Darrin Elliot

TIRED & BURNT

This is the shit that makes me want to get a girlfriend
Cuz these burnt ass nights & dramatic sessions need to end

Crazy how many us of constantly over sin
Us dudes aim for pussy like its a game that we just need to win

By any means its not that serious ratchets calm down
Or I'm liable to knock one of yall asses to the ground
& I'm not in a position to have the damn police involved
Yet that's the every time solution when you add bitches plus alcohol

I hate the ghetto shit & I seem to always find alone
That's why I need a well rounded wifey to call my own
A queen to my thrown
See this player shit is all that I've ever known

When I pass I don't want it to read Lebron Rest In Peace
Triple double stats every weekend & remain pimpins mvp
That's the shit l that I don't want in the cards for me
I just want to find the one who's really down for me
Metropolitan trips & numerous shopping sprees
The one who is part of my destiny
You know the beautiful angel who helps me raise a family

See these ratchet ass dimes just can't do it like a real one does
Like we are we arguing over getting food? Just because??
I guess you mistaken me for some type of bullshit love

I'm not the one yet I am the one for someone real
Not saying that your not, just not my kind of deal
Layaway pawn shop love this shit just doesn't have a feel
Drama type bitches yea I'm past that fire drill
Just caught up to the point where this grown man swag can chill

-Darrin Elliot

HARD

Seems like I can't even get a single day off
Work from 4am to 1230 noon then my career starts

Every single second is one that I can't pass or waste on me
I even know I'm gambling with life when I power up my ps3

So I elevate my hustle to a whole new degree
Insure my future is filled with achievements & prosperity
So I light a fire & rewrite what it is that is burned in me
I just chuck the deuces & aim for positivity

I relax & become complacent based upon my early success
Yet that wore off by my last twelve thousand check

& that was over a year ago,
So where the fuck did my hustle go?
Commit suicide back in Autumn? & jump out a high rise window
I have no clue yet I can say that some of my soul did go
I'm a man & I make mistakes see this is what I know

Yet let's look at the fact that I'm still here & breathing
Honestly what's stopping me from over achieving?
I can't blame my whack ass job for they are forever misleading
I just knock out my 8 then proceed to grand scheming

Yes blueprints have been placed and are in full effect
I guess its now up to my hustle to come show respect

Take flight muthafucka let's get it to the fullest
In Darrin Elliot we trust cause that nigga is the coolest

So if so many insure their trust in me
Then I need to look to myself & unleash my inner G

-Darrin Elliot

SLOW

I'm moving too fast & most say I have to stop
But I'm motivated to make it to the top

See one second I'm here, the next I'm gone
& when it comes to an attempt on love, I'm always wrong
But I guess that's what makes me strong

See all while I'm falling for you I'm still falling for me
& I guess that's what separates an F from a G
Got too much on my shoulders & I still have to support my family
All while they have never supported me
I just lace up my cape then accelerate my speed

Full steam ahead while I never stop to catch my breath
Fix my mistakes along the way see I have to freestyle the test
& if God allows me into his kingdom then I'm ultimately blessed
But until then its kinda hard to pause & rest

So beam me up Scott as I head for the top
I think of you constantly especially when my heart hurts a lot
& what's crazy is rare memories are all that I've got
Allow me to move faster & acquire half of what you've bought
Relearn the lessons & all the things you've ever taught

So faster I go, never an attempt to go slow

jump out the 3rd story high rise yes suicide I know

But this is how the stronger grow

yes

I'm moving to fast & I know the consequences
But when its all said & done
I just want to become number one

-Darrin Elliot

SO DONE

You'll regret the day when I acquire this new chick
cause with you I'm done with this dramatic shit

So on my end its peace out, deuces, adios, so long
I hope the best for you, sike I hope somebody else does yours ass wrong
Cuz I fucking hate it when a perfect liar comes along
Why take my kindness for weakness? Don't think that I'm strong?
You played the wrong one see I'm liable to have your brains blown
I'm a twisted sadistic vindictive asshole shit by now it should be known

This shit right here is definitely for the birds & one of the worst
By now one would think they know me from last to 1st
See you affect me like a self inflicted curse
But I blame myself too for giving you 23 million chances
Hell I would commit murder too if I had a million passes
But this is what happens when I say enough is enough that's it
You Mc hammered my love though you were to legit to quit
But I swear that I'm done with this shit

-Darrin Elliot

AGGRESSION 101

I promised you haven't seen nothing yet
Drenched is what I seek, you can forget about the wet
See the thing with this love is that I smash like a vet
So the more I play the better all this gets

So as we begin to kiss I simply aim to only please you
So what do I do? Of course choke you by the neck & ring you
Yea I need all your energy & attention focused on my mouth
The biting & sucking alter to force feed a few power outs

Yes electric stimulating pulsating concentrating love making
This is the most formulating unadulterated time you've ever been shaking

I guess its because I now aim to break & clutch into 2nd gear
Smack that shit so hard I almost inspire fear
Yet I promise you this dick is nothing to run from my dear
I promise you will let go of those feel good tears

This right here is just what happens when two freaks go hard
Soft to hard soft to hard & again soft to hard yea we go hard
Knocking & tapping headboards so of course your my aim
By the time I'm finished the whole island will know my name

-Darrin Elliot

GRANTED

Sitting here, about to practice what I preach
My modest sense of self has made me thankful to say the least
So i pause pause to inner think

Yea I ask the question to you & yours are you thankful for now?
I'm pretty sure life would be different if you took your final bow
yea the crazy shit is what I'm about now
Before, see I was that cocky dude who never knew when to stop
I gambled with my life & I ended with a simple crash & flop

Yea I skated my black ass up the pavement
Then I seen what the devil sent
A cocky inconsiderate bastard who was headed for final rest
See when it came to life's test I just bubbled C on the scantron to insure a certain death

I simply thought I was the best
Then God wagered in a bet placed it on death
I guess that's why I grind now until my last breath

Understand that we are here for a reason
When God calls you to the plate make sure its for a good reason

-Darrin Elliot